Miss you

Am extremely sorry my dear blog, i know, i don't even worth to apologize  but still, my life still beats for you and i know that you have the generosity to pardon my mistakes and my break..but i learnt my lessons..wont repeat this for sure..
hey buddy.hope everything is going good..my side too..its really been a long time we talked about our well being and health..everything is fine..
i started to interact with you some 3 years back and since then you are my companion, listening silently about my cheapness, my fall. my growth, my happiness and what not my life. are you guiding me properly in my journey towards my destination?, not sure though..but life is taking its usual twists and turns yaar..
i think i need to learn to cope up with all these precarious uncertain bullshitting life.sorry, sorry am not harsh..but felt like expressing myself..i just don't know like what exactly bothering me and what exactly am lacking..may be my desires and goals are high but am not working on them neither i possess the required talent or skill to achieve them with minimum efforts.
what's going wrong yaar??????
am diverting myself with lot of distraction..need to come back to my original persona..yes its possible..
with all my limitations i still hope and believe that i can reach my goals and i will contribute.. yes, i do contribute for the welfare..i need to improve on many counts, especially inter-human relationships..its hurting me.. decision taking at its low..cant even take a simple decision..
mate, come on, give me that strength..i assure you i come back in the same forum and i let you know my foot steps and please help me whenever i put some wrong steps or on the wrong path.
wish me mate..

your only n truly, 

sorry dear blog,,

THIS IS FOR MY BLOG AND NOT FOR THE READERS..PLEASE..
am extremely sorry for keep you waiting. am back now..hope this rejuvenates you..in the past two years i missed you like anything.. I knew I was missing you..but some how couldn't connect..lots and lots of things had happened in my life in the last two years, want to share with you in one single breath..but don't want to lose the enigma of it..so, will tell you one by one..most important.. I hope you  listen to me..
dear blog,
2 years back, .....entered my life and now part of it..been living with the blissful joy..sometimes it suffocates, but we realise its part and parcel of life..every relationship has to go through this I feel..
last year, I cleared the exam and was allotted Indian Revenue Service..currently going through its training..pretty hectic..but somehow breathing..after all i have to survive..cause..don't know..
this year, I couldn't get my desired service..may be, won't get in this life time.. that's OK..others were lucky..now i have to restrategise my plans to achieve my goals.. that's OK will put more efforts..life is all about this only..
then dear blog..not every one is good in family..it takes time to reconnect it,,hope you wish me in this regard..
have a nice time blog, till I come back..

complete mess

Dear life,

now i am going through the worst phase of my life...added to that i didn't even do my interview upto my expectation.....before leaving to Delhi, i had this dream of writing my interview experience in this blog...but now!! oopps!!! i can't even think of my interview as it has become a nightmare.

right now, i am totally blank...

but let me tell you i haven't lost hope..i still believe in the silver line that the life has in its stock for me!!!once i get that i will come back as hard as ever...i know problems and challenges are part of my life and they only enrich my bag of rich experiences,, but sometimes they become so huge that my small back will lose its grip and falter....

i am really in need of LIGHT...give me some sunshine..........

one more step

Its good to hear some good news amidst bad happenings in life. This time the good news is i cleared my mains exam and got a call for interview. this will be the last stage in IAS exam for which i am preparing. some how, i managed smooth sailing in all my endeavours through out my life. if i am able to do it again, hup!! lets see!!!
i am busy perparing for that D-DAY. so, please wish me and bless me for that.thank u all. see you after my interview.

I am tired

I don't know why i have taken this, but now i am tired. from the past one and half years i have involved myself completely in this arduous journey of preparing for this exam. i don't even know when i am going to clear this once and for all. all my energy is exausted. don't know to regain it as well.
am not repenting, but airing out my inner feelings. because i am very much aware of my future endeavours.
was worrying since i hadn't written the essay part well. but i know somebody in the universe will conspire for my marks and i will get good one only.
god, please help me out to cross these feelings, am not able to bear one such any more.
now comes the test of personality. i have got to perpare for that also. i just don't understand how a person can decide the personality of other by reading his inner mind, when he himself lack that perfection.rediculous!.
don't know how am i going to be interviewed.but am sure the whole universe will conspire for me and for YOU!

Only for my blog...

Sorry, my dear blog,for not addressing you for a long time.
Let me wish you a very colorful new year buddy.
you see, i am busy preparing for my interview. It is a herculean task, since i have to cover wide range of topics. But you see, once i get through this hurdle, my life would change and so also the lives of my fellow beings.so, i am enjoying this painful journey.ofcourse, nothing comes cheap you see.
Yet i am not confident about my prepation, probably due to the intense competative nature of this exam. But wish me well for this third stage.with your wishes.......

Boring!!!

Though I am amused over the hidden agendas of life, sometimes I do, like others, feel bored about this life and its routine happenings. like you people, I often question myself as how to escape from this boredom??.usually, I get the suggestions such as to keep myself busy doing onething or the other. But am I a machine to keep myself engaged in one or the other everytime.I am really confused to get rid of this boredom..when I am writing this post you can even guess in what mood i am in??.
so ,when I asked my friends what they will do when they get bored, one of my friends told me the good old idea of keeping oneself busy in doing different things. But he was innovative in suggesting that the healthier way of geting rid of boredom is to take a pill of loosemotion and be busy in bathroom!!!
In my experience the best way to deal with boredom is to make use of the time to cherish the good old memories of life. It re-energises the body as well as mind and puts smile on the face which, as for as i am concerned, is the biggest gift in one's life..
But you see friends, life is full of colorful experiences. you may have different experiences as well as ideas and opinions to deal with boredom.so,why dont you share it with me??!!.